Thoughts have been rolling through my head the past couple of hours..... and it is somewhat hard to make sense of it for me.
i feel like i am going up and down and up and down but there is no happy madium.
I want that happy meduim in my life. I need it right now...in the mist of all the bad around me...and i dont know how all the bad got there?!?!? can anyone clue me in!?!?!
I have so much to do but all i want to do is just sit and take all the good in for just one sec. so i can know what it feels like to just be happy....pure happiness.
why is that so hard to do?
ummm.... today i faced a tough brick wall....not one i really wanted to face but it happened. i cant make sense of it and that makes me frustrated. i HATE that. but to find the answers to it seems to be the hardest part i mean i can say what i want or need to do but is it the right thing to do? cause all the other options seem to be blown out the window as of right now.
with life happening so fast right now i am afraid to mess the small things that could make me see the big picture.......the picture that would make sense of everything. but slowing down seems to not be such a great option.....so i am stuck, stuck in a bind that seems to be comtroling me really good.
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